You know that weird moment when you’re in a coffee shop and
a newspaper photographer is taking your picture? Yeah, me neither. Until last
Monday.
I blogged some time ago about becoming comfortable with,
what I called, ‘coming out of the erotica writer’s closet.’ You can read more
about my thoughts on that here and here but the gist of it is I had been
keeping my erotica writer self to, well, myself. She was my sexy alter ego no
one else knew about. But last year I started to let her out. Slowly. Even now,
though, the majority of the time I am your typical working mom, nothing to see
here, and the shy part of me likes it that way.
You would think that since it’s been over a year since I
wrote those entries I would have come a long way in my journey to be comfortable
and proud of my passion for writing kink. I might have even told you I had. But
a recent news item in my home town of Toronto made me realise that perhaps I am
not so chill. What I am referring to is the firing of popular radio show host
Jian Ghomeshi from his long term position with the CBC. Earlier this week Ghomeshi
put up a post on his Facebook page stating, in essence, that the CBC fired him
for participating in a consensual BDSM relationship with a now jilted ex
girlfriend. I immediately was outraged. How could a person be fired for consensual
acts that he was involved with in his personal life?? I quickly threw up
several tweets to express my disgust with this injustice.
A more discerning eye, someone not so touchy about kink
shame, would have looked at this news item a bit longer and realised that there
may be more to the story than what Ghomeshi would have you believe from his
Facebook rant. Indeed, as more information about the assaults the women ( yes,
plural, there are in fact four or five --correction, just checked today and now there are eight!) are attributing to Ghomeshi come to
light, disturbingly, it seems increasingly likely that this issue has more to
do with consent than kink. Let me be clear: abuse is not kink. The motto of BDSM is safe, sane and consensual. If a person is choosing to hide abuse behind the veil of BDSM that is deplorable and does the kink world an enormous disservice, to say nothing of what it does for women and their ability to be heard when abuse has happened.
But I digress.
What does this have to do with little ol’ me, on the other
side of the world, having my photo taken for the SA Weekend? Not much. Except
that it gave me pause. It reminded me that, Ghomeshi aside, there are actually
people out there who have been treated unjustly based solely on consensual
relationships which may seem different to others. I write about these kinds of
relationships. I think they’re pretty …nifty!
And so on Monday as - what the Twittersphere has dubbed - Jiangate was unfolding and
I had only a snippet of the information and I was preparing for my first newspaper photo as an erotica author, a person who writes about BDSM relationships…I may have overreacted.
But I’ve calmed down.
I like what I write. Other people like what I write. Yes, it’s
about sex. Yes, it’s about kink. And it’s about love and relationships and
sometimes it’s even funny. So I’m putting my face out there in my continuing
endeavour to be sex positive and kink positive in what is often a sex negative
world.
Here I am.
And here is my book.
That’s what this will be. A
safe haven.
A place for no holds
barred ranting.
A place for secrets. And drawing. Even if
it’s bad. Even if it’s wrong.
No one will see here. No
one will see this.
This is just for me.
Charlotte Campbell no
longer recognizes her life. Once a shy, married woman who loved curling up in
front of the latest episode of Downton Abbey almost as much as her job at the
library, she’s now found herself jilted, holed up in her dead father’s run down
old cottage and demoted to working in “the Dungeon” with only the automated
book sorter for company.
But Charlotte has secrets.
The kinds of drawings she does are not what her work colleagues might expect. Then
there’s Nathan, a young patron at the library and the reason for her demotion.
What happens with Nathan provides Charlotte with much fodder for her art.
When Nathan’s emails
reveal a startling truth, Charlotte discovers a new dimension of her sexuality.
But unsettling dreams from her past continue to plague her and Charlotte is eventually
forced to confront her most deep rooted fears.
Part Bridget Jones’ Diary and part Anais Nin, Diary of a Library Nerd is the Wimpy
Kid book for adults. Every bit as
readable, the drawings will shock and thrill you while you cheer Charlotte and
her artwork through to the dramatic conclusion.
Get it here.
